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Re:The Bard's Coffee Shop 2007 1st edition - 09/23/2007
WOW -- hello everyone. I guess you've all been wondering where the hell I've been. Many, many things have happened over the last 6 months, so I'll make it as short and impersonal as possible without overdoing the details.
Actually, let's simplify this by doing a helene-to-helene interview. So shall we?
Q: Helene, where the flip have you BEEN for 6 months?
A: EVERYWHERE. Up and down the coast. Multiple states, multiple houses, never staying more than a few weeks at each place. I've been collecting myself, re-finding myself, and what the hey -- I've been redefining myself and my very existence. And not being a drama queen, mind.
Q: And what made you go off on a little adventure?
A: Breaking up. Sure, everyone goes through it. But mine was a little different. For those of you who know little about me, you need to know that: a) yes, I am in my later 20's -- inexperienced in life, perhaps? and b) I've spent my ENTIRE adult life with one man who I believed to be the one. c)Just plain confused about a whole lot of stuff. So I gave it ALL up. Everything. Didn't even take a lot of stuff with me. Lots of things got lost, thrown out, or given away by choice.
Q: So that's it? Well, that sucks.
A: Yeah, I know. It does suck. Almost everything went wrong... I was upset, lonely from disconnecting from everyone (and changing my cell number), and a little strapped for cash once in a while. I began questioning my decision of leaving -- maybe I made the wrong choice. But I stuck to my guns through it all, and I'm quite proud of myself.
I no longer work a "regular" job. Lots of freelance/telecommuting... kind of like being in business for myself, which is nice. I also met a lot of people along the way, tons more than I could ever imagine. Now, I feel like I can go anywhere on the east coast and feel welcome by at least one. It's a good feeling, you know, expanding... I'm thankful I opened up.
Q: Did you learn anything?
Yes. Life isn't always easy (well, duh). It was my first experience with anything remotely uncomfortable. I mean, I even PAINTED walls for the day. I also SANDED a whole set of stairs. I also went to a wedding to tend bar for the night. And wrote a media kit for a poker player. It was all very interesting.
But it seemed to me that the harder things were, the more focused I felt. And at the end of the road, it felt rewarding. Overall, I feel good. I genuinely believe that I have become a better person and can only hope to work hard for ME in the future, and NOT FOR ANYONE ELSE.
Q: So are you back? What are you doing? We're really bored.
Yes, I'm back as of next week. I'm settling into my new place and getting my furniture together. I'm also getting my puppy back from the ex (Yay) and am extremely thankful for that. I'm moving on, slowly but surely, and of course, with new friends and experiences to carry me on.
Q: Do you think the others will forgive you for your absence?
Um, I think so. I think they'll find it in their hearts to forgive me because the lovely folks of WS know a little more about life than I do. They know that sometimes, you have to go find yourself before you try to better the world -- or at least a small portion of it. But if none of this is true, at least I know that Melody will still love me, even if she comes to kick my ass. But that will certainly be a welcome visit.
Q: Can I kick your ass, too?
Well, no. Because you are me, that's like beating up yourself, Alter Ego of Helene. But how about this? I'll buy you a nice, strong cocktail.
 That's it!! It's good to be back. And I Promise to Get Things Rolling once again! I love all of you, and thanks for supporting the site in my absence. Melody, you and I have a lot of work to do! Let's get to it -- Thanks for everything.
And of course, thanks to you all.
XO, Helene
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